Sunday, October 16, 2011

What A Girl Wants...

So similar and yet so different.

She bemoans not getting a 'Daddy-Daughter Dance' because her father is gone.
My father is very much here, and I still won't get one because he's allergic to formal events, like weddings and funerals and...well.

Her father freaks out when she rides off on a motor bike, and you can tell by the look on his face that there's going to be some rules set.
Mine pretends not to freak out when I have a date, but sits in the front parlor cleaning a shotgun when the boy introduces himself.

She's not a lady, but is trying her hardest to be one.
I'm too much of a lady, and I'd like to cross to the other side.

Her American mother is a musician, her English father knows the music stuff, and she likes the atmosphere but isn't musical herself.
My English father is a musician, my American mother knows the music stuff [and even dabbles in playing herself], and I can't find the atmosphere, thought I'm a budding musician myself.

If I could find a happy medium here for myself, my day would be made...

Somehow chick-flicks aren't as comforting as they once were.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Did you know...

Emma is twenty-four?
I mean, crazy, right?
I'm almost to a quarter-life crisis lol...
It's just like...
GASP!!


So I'm trying to decide, what should I really focus on?
I mean, a girl's gotta get her priorities straight if she wants things to happen, right?
And you can put me down if you like, say I'm going off on tangents, getting on the wrong track, etc, but for you, all I have to say is...
Well, a picture's worth a thousand words, or so they say...


So perhaps that's childish.
I'm not really cut out to be an adult.
But they tell me that's actually okay.
I'm still in school, anyway, still learning, and things are gonna be just fine.
Probably.
Plus, I look really amazing in this dress, don't I?


[Though posing in front of an anime scroll increases the childish factor, doesn't it? haha]

Off to the symphony...
(In a DIFFERENT dress, though)
Love you all!!

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Tumbling down...


In case you're bored, enjoy the randomness...

http://lonelyingorgeouswitharedscarf.tumblr.com/


Things I worry about...

Failing chemistry...
Not being smart enough...
My left hand freaking out...
Dresses left to wrinkle in the basket...
Liking more than one boy at a time...
Looking pretty...
Doing dishes before someone complains...
Losing jewelry...
Paying for bridesmaid dresses...
Going to every concert possible just in case I'm graded...
Finding something to write about...
Talking to my sister and avoiding certain subjects...
Losing my religion...
Writing parts for Voce Capriccio...
Talent shows...
Hair dye and makeup...
Music Through the Centuries, Part 1...
Working enough hours...
Saving the milk for the important stuff...
Falling down the stairs and breaking a leg...
Finding the perfect pair of black shoes...
My distinct lack of innocence...
Vacuuming the living room...
Not being good enough for him...
Feeling stupid...
Wondering if I should finish that wine by myself or not...
Spending all my money to go home and never come back...
Why a certain someone hates me...
Why another someone is polite but is no longer my sister...
Keeping the car clean...
Getting my residency switched to Montana...
Filling out a FAFSA and not letting people complain about my tuition...
Keeping up my GPA...
Getting kicked out of school...
Losing my voice...
Writing the perfect composition...
Being smarter than the freshmen...
To act or not to act...
Extra credit...
Not being able to talk to you...
Running out of batteries...
Nightmares...
What to cook for dinner...

And probably some other things...
God grant me peace.