Life is crazy...

And I'm understanding Beth's frustration at not having the internet at your fingertips.
(Minus the people yelling at me in Russian, of course.)

I can't decide what to say, life has been so weird...

First off, though, let me apologize...

To Jessie, my beloved sister, for not understanding exactly what it is you're going through, because I don't even know!! I wish you'd have told me, it was a big shock reading it after not having reliable internet for who knows how long...
Just let me say, I'm praying for you, not just that you get through it, but I told God, I'm asking for a MIRACLE! because you deserve one, you need one, and why is it that we're so afraid to ask God for what he so freely gives? So, Jess, don't worry, everything's going to be great, cuz God doesn't work half-assed...

(And maybe I shouldn't swear in the same sentence that I talk about Him in, right?)

Also, I apologize to Beth, for not knowing what's going on with you as well. I think it's just awesome that you even have the opportunity to be over there, and I never thought about all the hardships you might be going through, and I hope that everyone else has been encouraging enough that you forgive my lack thereof. You're such a strong person, and so brave to be over there and I fully believe in your ability to make a difference while you're there.

*Sigh*

Now that my conscience is soothed...

Things that have been going on in my life...

We have a lot of double-shifts.
And don't get me wrong, I love my work, but sometimes I'd just like to sleep. I'm exhausted to the point that in the last few weeks, I've read only five chapters of a book (and you all know how I love to read). And, in Angeno's, at least, we're having a lot of technical difficulties. The coffee-maker is broken, water comes out a trickle, and the ice-maker quit this morning. Not to mention, our manager isn't the greatest at keeping things stocked, so we run out frequently, and though I'm capable, I hate being the one to call the head honcho and get things sorted out...
But such is life...

I've lost pretty much all interest in exercising.
I haven't ridden bike or gone for a walk, even, in probably a month --though I'm going biking with a friend later today, as I actually have a few hours free-- and I feel rather lethargic and lazy...
And yet, it's not that I'm not busy, or doing work --or even, surprisingly enough, doing dishes at home-- it's just that I'm not...what is it...I'm not 'healthy' maybe?
I can't quite explain it...

I found out my ex might have another girlfriend.
Ouch, of course.
And though I stayed calm when my friend told me she saw him at the movies with another girl, I had to cry when I told Mom about it. And okay, so I'd prefer he find another girl rather than joining the priesthood (there are just so many things I don't agree with in the Catholic church), but it's amazing how much it hurts, even after all this time...

I've started to keep track of my spending.
Mom and I figured out about how much I should be making a month, and there's about two hundred dollars we can't account for, which is obviously being spent on junk that I don't even think about, and we were saying "How can I be this irresponsible?"
So I've started a notebook with everything I spend, I'm keeping receipts, and we'll try to see what I'm doing, and it really makes you think about what you're buying.
And I'm happy to say, I already find progress, in that I haven't bought chocolate frosting in two weeks. :)

And I suppose there are other things, but that's all I've got right now, my brain's on the fritz, a bit...
I'll be on more often, I hope.

Love you all...