I can't afford a shrink...

So you'll have to do.

Sometimes it seems everything is about HIM.

All the music is about him...

All the movies are about him...

Everything I do somehow comes back to him.

And I've told myself, IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE!!

Which, since I have, actually helps.

But sometimes, sometimes, I regress, and I can't help but think about him...

I thought I had an antidote.

There's a picture I took on my phone a while back, where he was getting tired of my taking pictures, and so he flicked me off, though still smiling. And I was browsing through those pictures when I came across that one, and it made me laugh, and I thought to myself, 'This is perfect. He's a jerk, so this proves it, and I won't have to moon over him anymore.'

And, strange and twisted as that seems, it was working.

But I just bought a new phone, and there are no pictures of him being mean to me so what am I supposed to do now?

Can you tell me that?

In other news...

I'm taking pictures at the county fair today, for the judging for 4H.

It should be fun, though I'll have to dig out my sunscreen and all, but I kind of like being outside these days...I'm coming out of my shell and all...or my lair, as my mom calls it, haha...

And then later tonight, we're practicing our skit for performance on Saturday and Sunday, which is pretty exciting, I think.

Now if only I could figure out what my role is, I'd be great...