Did Marissa send you the video about the atheist guy?
It's really cool, just music and words
But pretty awesome, I think I like it
I'd like to think I'd stand up, but I don't know...
Pretty powerful thinking...
I'm going to pray for courage...
Cuz there are things I wanna do, places I wanna go, but I always have some excuse
But I wonder, if instead of a real excuse, maybe it's just fear?
YAY PRAYER!!!
lol
I got an email from Mom today
telling me how I should come to Haiti
and I responded how every time I planned something for God, things got in the way...
The devil's work, I think...
So I need double prayer!!
Cuz I really want to do things...
Like YWAM or Haiti or going to the Clarks
But it's not easy...
yes, really
I think I'm glad that most of my remaining books are not romance novels
cuz I think they poison me sometimes
and I need the antidote right now...
I think the hardest thing about going away from here will be finding a strong church and family to learn more about God...
That's about the gist of it before going on to less important things...like the weather...and Hildi...and 'What's up?'...and me being right simply by being Emma...
But anyway, the video I mentioned is about this professor who spends all semester trying to disprove the existence of God and at the end of the semester asks whoever still believes in Jesus to stand up, saying they're a fool if they do, and if God existed he would stop the chalk he dropped from breaking on the floor, and for twenty years no one stands, whether they truly don't believe or whether they're just afraid, but this one kid prays for the courage to stand up, and he does, the professor calls him a fool, but when he drops the chalk, it drops in such a way that it just rolls across the floor once it hits, and the professor, aghast, runs from the class, and then the student preaches about God to the rest of the class, pretty cool, I wish I could put it on here...
But it definitely got me thinking...
And I realized that the only thing keeping me here, the only thing that brought me back home after visiting Jessie, is fear.
If I wasn't so afraid, I'd have left long before.
I'd have gone to Switzerland.
I'd have gone on at least one tour with the Clarks.
I probably wouldn't have stayed with James as long as I did, if I even would have started dating him...
Amazing how powerful fear can be...
So this is my new thought-process, care of Air1's Verse of the Day (about two weeks ago, but I kept it anyway...):
"Commit your actions to the Lord, and your plans will succeed. " Proverbs 16:3, NLT
Not gonna let fear stand in my way anymore...
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