So I was extraordinarily tired yesterday...
Why?
Because I got up with the alarm...
And stayed up.
Doesn't happen these days, no clue why, I'm just a bad kid, I guess...
ANYWAY...
So I noticed then, that every time I stopped focusing, I'd find myself almost falling off my chair.
Not good, right?
Especially in the middle of the dining room...
So I got back to my room after dinner, then, and I was trying to work on my homework, and even to catch up on some internet stuff, but it just wasn't working; my interest was such that I felt myself fading in and out, and though I've fallen asleep in my desk chair before, it's not a comfortable experience!! So I really wasn't looking forward to a repeat...and instead I decided to take my friends' advice and just get some sleep. I figured a small nap or something, considering it's only 6:30, so I stripped off my shirt and climbed under the covers and sank...
Quite lovely, really.
And then, the next time I open my eyes, it's light out.
Did I sleep for an hour?
Twenty minutes?
Not at all...
I slept for twelve hours...
Oh joy...
There goes my homework plans, huh?
But I feel refreshed, and I'm hoping today's going to be an awesome day...
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Sunday, April 18, 2010
My sister, the Genius...
So you may or may not know, my sister Jessie does a lot of digital scrap-booking (you can see her stuff here) and I was thinking I love it, but also thinking I'm too lazy and untalented to do it myself, so I asked, sent a few ideas, and voila...
This is so totally me!! Haha, I knew it was a good one to send...
And also, we have...
Ah, the joy of the masquerade ball...(and yes, I had a mask, but I wasn't wearing it at this point!)...
Jessie, you rock my world, I love you, thank you so much!!!
This is so totally me!! Haha, I knew it was a good one to send...And also, we have...
Ah, the joy of the masquerade ball...(and yes, I had a mask, but I wasn't wearing it at this point!)...Jessie, you rock my world, I love you, thank you so much!!!
I lied...
Even if you don't like my work, I'm going to keep writing...
We clear on that?
Good...
So...
Here's my take on a classic, haha...
A boy and a girl sat down for lunch. They were friends, but no more than that; they'd known each other since they were in kindergarten, and had a very easy rapport with one another. Today, however, the girl was suspiciously silent, and finally the boy had to ask what was wrong. The girl only smiled and shook her head. He couldn't fix her problem, she told him. Why not? he demanded...
He took her words as a challenge, and pushed his lunch aside to focus on her. He was up for anything, he boasted, and could fix her problem in a flash. Though doubtful, she nodded and began to explain. She'd fallen in love with an old friend, but didn't know how to broach the subject with him. Well, that's easy, he scoffed, and began listing ideas she could use, but she shook her head...
The problem was, she said, that she knew for sure he didn't feel the same way, so it was better if she just let her feelings take a backseat to their friendship. The boy grew angry and scowled. He would show that dumb guy, he said. How stupid could he be not to love her? You don't love me, she pointed out with a small smile, and he frowned. Of course I do, he said...
Did she really think he'd eat lunch with her every day if he didn't? She laughed and shook her head in disbelief, but couldn't help her response. I love you too. Right, he nodded, so if you can tell me, why can't you tell him? Her smile grew more pronounced and she replied, I just did...
Now that, I admit is not quite original.
But it's well-written either way, and if I can do that on the fly, then the stuff I really try for is all the better, right?
So please, support me...
And if you're nice, I might even dedicate something to you!! =]
Love you all, hope life's treating you right...
We clear on that?
Good...
So...
Here's my take on a classic, haha...
A boy and a girl sat down for lunch. They were friends, but no more than that; they'd known each other since they were in kindergarten, and had a very easy rapport with one another. Today, however, the girl was suspiciously silent, and finally the boy had to ask what was wrong. The girl only smiled and shook her head. He couldn't fix her problem, she told him. Why not? he demanded...
He took her words as a challenge, and pushed his lunch aside to focus on her. He was up for anything, he boasted, and could fix her problem in a flash. Though doubtful, she nodded and began to explain. She'd fallen in love with an old friend, but didn't know how to broach the subject with him. Well, that's easy, he scoffed, and began listing ideas she could use, but she shook her head...
The problem was, she said, that she knew for sure he didn't feel the same way, so it was better if she just let her feelings take a backseat to their friendship. The boy grew angry and scowled. He would show that dumb guy, he said. How stupid could he be not to love her? You don't love me, she pointed out with a small smile, and he frowned. Of course I do, he said...
Did she really think he'd eat lunch with her every day if he didn't? She laughed and shook her head in disbelief, but couldn't help her response. I love you too. Right, he nodded, so if you can tell me, why can't you tell him? Her smile grew more pronounced and she replied, I just did...
Now that, I admit is not quite original.
But it's well-written either way, and if I can do that on the fly, then the stuff I really try for is all the better, right?
So please, support me...
And if you're nice, I might even dedicate something to you!! =]
Love you all, hope life's treating you right...
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Am I unoriginal?
Please tell me that up-front.
If it turns out to be true...
I'll stop writing.
No more stories...
No more poems...
No more lyrics...
No more songs...
I'll just quit right here and now.
I don't want to burden you with my 'unoriginal' thoughts...
If it turns out to be true...
I'll stop writing.
No more stories...
No more poems...
No more lyrics...
No more songs...
I'll just quit right here and now.
I don't want to burden you with my 'unoriginal' thoughts...
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Brownies in the Mail...
Everyone loves to get mail...
And I'm a strange one that even likes junk mail or bills...
Because it shows someone cares enough to put my name on an envelope!! =]
But it's really awesome, when you open a package...
And there's CHOCOLATE...
Definitely worth leaving the room for that, haha...
So...
What's going on here?
Um...
It's crunch time, I guess...
There's one month left of school...
And Mom said if I don't do well, I'm not coming back...
(I beg to differ, Mom!! Not gonna stay home even if you make me!!)
So there are papers to write...
Projects to wrap up...
Priorities to rearrange...
Sigh...
And lots of headaches, of course.
But as long as I get breakfast, I'm usually okay... =]
In other news...
If you're bored...
If you have time...
If you feel like something new...
A few suggestions...
"Piano no Mori"
(Literally 'Piano of the Forest' or 'Forest Piano')
It's full of classical music, which is rockin' awesome, and it's in Japanese, which is ALSO awesome...rather switched on, actually. And the story-line is decent, it's not crude, rude or unacceptable, it's not even a romantic plot-line, just a story about two friends playing piano, and how they approach it. If I was a critic, I'd give it five out of five stars, and even the lame scenes just aren't that lame...so look it up, on YouTube or wherever, or maybe even just splurge and buy the thing!! Oh, and you can read the manga version on MangaFox as well, if you so desire.
Mario Paint Composer
It's Mario. It's music. What more do you need? And okay, so it's not like you can make a masterpiece off the bat, it's actually a little bit difficult, but it's fun, it's awesome, and, well, if you find yourself wanting to give up...go ahead. Some of us are composers, some of us are just a kid sitting in the back row of the audience...but make sure you look it up on YouTube so you can see how awesome it can be.
Fritz Lang's Metropolis
So in this world of fast-action flicks and out-of-this-world special effects, sometimes it's nice to sit back and watch a classic. And considering it was made before even my grandparents were born, 'classic' is the word we're looking for. It's German Expressionism to the max, and while sets might be cheesy and acting is sub-par, it's a great look at how film-making began, and it's a pretty cool view of what society could be.
Mafia Wars
Okay, I know, why waste my time? But it's actually highly addictive, and I kind of like the feel of being 'Don'. Money rolls in, you've got an entire 'Family' at your disposal, and if you get hurt, well, it only takes a click of a mouse for the doctor to make a personal visit and you're back on your feet. Plus, it's simple, and doesn't take too much effort to do well, so you really can't lose, and hey, winning is good, right? Of course, I know for some, even a click of a mouse is too much effort...but if you still want your mafia fix, try these awesome flicks: The Godfather, Mickey Blue Eyes, Oscar, Goodfellas, My Cousin Vinny, The Untouchables...and there's more where that came from.
That's all I got for now, the sun in shining through my window, which I think means I need to start getting ready for the day, so I'll sign off...
Hope all's well with the rest of you!!
And I'm a strange one that even likes junk mail or bills...
Because it shows someone cares enough to put my name on an envelope!! =]
But it's really awesome, when you open a package...
And there's CHOCOLATE...
Definitely worth leaving the room for that, haha...
So...
What's going on here?
Um...
It's crunch time, I guess...
There's one month left of school...
And Mom said if I don't do well, I'm not coming back...
(I beg to differ, Mom!! Not gonna stay home even if you make me!!)
So there are papers to write...
Projects to wrap up...
Priorities to rearrange...
Sigh...
And lots of headaches, of course.
But as long as I get breakfast, I'm usually okay... =]
In other news...
If you're bored...
If you have time...
If you feel like something new...
A few suggestions...
"Piano no Mori"
(Literally 'Piano of the Forest' or 'Forest Piano')
It's full of classical music, which is rockin' awesome, and it's in Japanese, which is ALSO awesome...rather switched on, actually. And the story-line is decent, it's not crude, rude or unacceptable, it's not even a romantic plot-line, just a story about two friends playing piano, and how they approach it. If I was a critic, I'd give it five out of five stars, and even the lame scenes just aren't that lame...so look it up, on YouTube or wherever, or maybe even just splurge and buy the thing!! Oh, and you can read the manga version on MangaFox as well, if you so desire.
Mario Paint Composer
It's Mario. It's music. What more do you need? And okay, so it's not like you can make a masterpiece off the bat, it's actually a little bit difficult, but it's fun, it's awesome, and, well, if you find yourself wanting to give up...go ahead. Some of us are composers, some of us are just a kid sitting in the back row of the audience...but make sure you look it up on YouTube so you can see how awesome it can be.
Fritz Lang's Metropolis
So in this world of fast-action flicks and out-of-this-world special effects, sometimes it's nice to sit back and watch a classic. And considering it was made before even my grandparents were born, 'classic' is the word we're looking for. It's German Expressionism to the max, and while sets might be cheesy and acting is sub-par, it's a great look at how film-making began, and it's a pretty cool view of what society could be.
Mafia Wars
Okay, I know, why waste my time? But it's actually highly addictive, and I kind of like the feel of being 'Don'. Money rolls in, you've got an entire 'Family' at your disposal, and if you get hurt, well, it only takes a click of a mouse for the doctor to make a personal visit and you're back on your feet. Plus, it's simple, and doesn't take too much effort to do well, so you really can't lose, and hey, winning is good, right? Of course, I know for some, even a click of a mouse is too much effort...but if you still want your mafia fix, try these awesome flicks: The Godfather, Mickey Blue Eyes, Oscar, Goodfellas, My Cousin Vinny, The Untouchables...and there's more where that came from.
That's all I got for now, the sun in shining through my window, which I think means I need to start getting ready for the day, so I'll sign off...
Hope all's well with the rest of you!!
<3>
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Oreos, Headaches, and Lord of the Rings...
So it's been a bit...
Did you miss me?
Ah, of course you did!!
My mother worries about my diet, as right she should. Though, true, I have a mealplan, and I get there almost all ten times a week, I also have a habit of snacking...and the snack of choice? You guessed it: Oreos. Ah...it may be milk's favorite cookie, but I saw it first!! And five boxes later I'm still not sick of it...though having gotten to the point I can eat half a package in one sitting, I've decided to tone it down and eat only half a row instead. Yes, Emma is learning a bit of self-control...
(And for those who think that buying that many boxes in the first place disproves that, let me inform you that I bought them a few months ago and just forgot about them until now!)
Yesterday, my diet took an interesting turn when after finishing my quota of Oreos, I had a children's vitamin and an apple...so I'm going healthy in reverse? Huh...
The things that are giving me a headache at this time...well...
History class. I love it and I hate it. There's so much reading!! And it's interesting and fascinating and I just want to burn my textbooks...a fine line between love and hate...but I'm keeping with it, and I've already registered for two more history courses next semester, so look out, here I come...can't hold me back!!
English also gives headaches. I have a paper that just won't do what it's supposed to. Which is, of course, come together in such a brilliant way that the teacher can't help but give me an A+++. (Yes, that grade DOES exist!!) But I'm struggling, and it's hard to focus when I can't get it right off the bat...ah well...
The kids at my lunch table are a bit...well...I like one of them? And I want to break off completely from the rest of them. Except I don't want to be lonely either. So I continue to sit. And to be amazed at how such smart kids can be so dumb. And I hate it...but no one else will talk to me and I don't know why.
Finding a parking spot is also stressful. I haven't left the dorm since I got back from Colorado because I had a spot right up front, and I knew I'd lose it if I left. So things I needed to do, like go to the bank, buy tampons, anything that I don't want a crowd for, didn't get done. Until this afternoon...where I got lost. And spent more time than I wanted. But then find, to my surprise, my up-front and personal parking space is still empty upon my return. Worry wasted...
Another worry I find myself carrying: my brother and sister do not answer their phones...and though I might talk on Facebook to them, it's not the same. And maybe it's only been a few days...but I need contact with family. Mom and Katey are good fun, and Maggie can carry a conversation for a bit...but I want the funky not-so-intelligent but still smarter than me focus I get from Jessie, Eric, Ellen...though I see Elle is busy with her new horse, and she did call back, if only for a short chat. I'm lonely maybe? And I don't know where to find good people...
Knitting is both a joy and a torture. I'm big on crocheting things. I've made scarves and blankets...and I decided I wanted to finally learn to knit...and the progress goes so much slower...I don't see results. I'm just impatient. Instant results, that's why I bought the pills!! Haha, but seriously, I'm glad that I'm learning it, I just wish I could focus better...another one of those not-quite-coming-together things.
I suppose the biggest thing that causes headaches, though, is just a simple like of hydration. I feel like a slob...I haven't done dishes, so I have no cups to drink from, and I only drink a single glass of whatever I choose that day at lunch and supper. I haven't taken a shower, only washed my hair twice, in the last week, and that's a big loss of H2O. And forget the 'ultra moisture' body lotion that makes my skin so pretty, I'm lucky if I remember to brush my hair...what's wrong with me? Disgusting...and I don't care either. I'm actually kind of happy this way.
And I'm starting to enjoy the headaches...
God...
Sorry, I meant that in a blasphemous way, haha...
I think...
I'm losing focus here too.
I don't care right now.
So if you really want to know what Lord of the Rings has to do with anything, just ask me later, okay?
Hope your lives are a bit saner than mine appears to be...
Did you miss me?
Ah, of course you did!!
My mother worries about my diet, as right she should. Though, true, I have a mealplan, and I get there almost all ten times a week, I also have a habit of snacking...and the snack of choice? You guessed it: Oreos. Ah...it may be milk's favorite cookie, but I saw it first!! And five boxes later I'm still not sick of it...though having gotten to the point I can eat half a package in one sitting, I've decided to tone it down and eat only half a row instead. Yes, Emma is learning a bit of self-control...
(And for those who think that buying that many boxes in the first place disproves that, let me inform you that I bought them a few months ago and just forgot about them until now!)
Yesterday, my diet took an interesting turn when after finishing my quota of Oreos, I had a children's vitamin and an apple...so I'm going healthy in reverse? Huh...
The things that are giving me a headache at this time...well...
History class. I love it and I hate it. There's so much reading!! And it's interesting and fascinating and I just want to burn my textbooks...a fine line between love and hate...but I'm keeping with it, and I've already registered for two more history courses next semester, so look out, here I come...can't hold me back!!
English also gives headaches. I have a paper that just won't do what it's supposed to. Which is, of course, come together in such a brilliant way that the teacher can't help but give me an A+++. (Yes, that grade DOES exist!!) But I'm struggling, and it's hard to focus when I can't get it right off the bat...ah well...
The kids at my lunch table are a bit...well...I like one of them? And I want to break off completely from the rest of them. Except I don't want to be lonely either. So I continue to sit. And to be amazed at how such smart kids can be so dumb. And I hate it...but no one else will talk to me and I don't know why.
Finding a parking spot is also stressful. I haven't left the dorm since I got back from Colorado because I had a spot right up front, and I knew I'd lose it if I left. So things I needed to do, like go to the bank, buy tampons, anything that I don't want a crowd for, didn't get done. Until this afternoon...where I got lost. And spent more time than I wanted. But then find, to my surprise, my up-front and personal parking space is still empty upon my return. Worry wasted...
Another worry I find myself carrying: my brother and sister do not answer their phones...and though I might talk on Facebook to them, it's not the same. And maybe it's only been a few days...but I need contact with family. Mom and Katey are good fun, and Maggie can carry a conversation for a bit...but I want the funky not-so-intelligent but still smarter than me focus I get from Jessie, Eric, Ellen...though I see Elle is busy with her new horse, and she did call back, if only for a short chat. I'm lonely maybe? And I don't know where to find good people...
Knitting is both a joy and a torture. I'm big on crocheting things. I've made scarves and blankets...and I decided I wanted to finally learn to knit...and the progress goes so much slower...I don't see results. I'm just impatient. Instant results, that's why I bought the pills!! Haha, but seriously, I'm glad that I'm learning it, I just wish I could focus better...another one of those not-quite-coming-together things.
I suppose the biggest thing that causes headaches, though, is just a simple like of hydration. I feel like a slob...I haven't done dishes, so I have no cups to drink from, and I only drink a single glass of whatever I choose that day at lunch and supper. I haven't taken a shower, only washed my hair twice, in the last week, and that's a big loss of H2O. And forget the 'ultra moisture' body lotion that makes my skin so pretty, I'm lucky if I remember to brush my hair...what's wrong with me? Disgusting...and I don't care either. I'm actually kind of happy this way.
And I'm starting to enjoy the headaches...
God...
Sorry, I meant that in a blasphemous way, haha...
I think...
I'm losing focus here too.
I don't care right now.
So if you really want to know what Lord of the Rings has to do with anything, just ask me later, okay?
Hope your lives are a bit saner than mine appears to be...
Monday, March 8, 2010
I didn't watch the Academy Awards...
First, who really cares?
Second, who has time?
While the show was on, I was running out of gas on the side of the road trying to get back to school...thank God for friends, because otherwise it's at least eight hours to anyone that would be willing to help me...but it was an adventure, and I actually had a blast, singing to myself, reading my history book...and I got to ride in the back of a cute sheriff's SUV when he offered to get me enough gas to at least get into town...so awesome!! People are so nice to me...maybe I'm cuter than we thought, huh? Haha, but seriously, it was pretty great, and my friend Matt drove forty miles from school just to fill me up--did I mention I was broke? Aw, so bad with finances!! But still, I had a good time last night, and if I got back to my home-away-from-home two hours later than planned, so what?
About the Academy Awards, though...
As I said, I didn't watch them, and probably wouldn't have thought twice about them...except when I sign out of my email all the news blurbs are about the Oscars, and I see Sandra Bullock, who is one of my favorite actresses ever, so I'm looking through pictures...
And I realize every guy looks the same. There is no such thing as a fashion flub for guys.
Suit, tie...easy, but kind of boring.
And then I saw this...
Blue bow-tie, sunglasses, and tennis shoes...
Thank you Robert Downey Jr!!
And I suppose your wife looks very pretty too...
(*cough*)
Samuel L Jackson was a bit different too, wearing a beret, and I was glad to see the variety...
But it makes me wonder...
Are Hollywood men really all the same??
Guess I better stop dreaming about them, then...
Did you watch the awards?
Second, who has time?
While the show was on, I was running out of gas on the side of the road trying to get back to school...thank God for friends, because otherwise it's at least eight hours to anyone that would be willing to help me...but it was an adventure, and I actually had a blast, singing to myself, reading my history book...and I got to ride in the back of a cute sheriff's SUV when he offered to get me enough gas to at least get into town...so awesome!! People are so nice to me...maybe I'm cuter than we thought, huh? Haha, but seriously, it was pretty great, and my friend Matt drove forty miles from school just to fill me up--did I mention I was broke? Aw, so bad with finances!! But still, I had a good time last night, and if I got back to my home-away-from-home two hours later than planned, so what?
About the Academy Awards, though...
As I said, I didn't watch them, and probably wouldn't have thought twice about them...except when I sign out of my email all the news blurbs are about the Oscars, and I see Sandra Bullock, who is one of my favorite actresses ever, so I'm looking through pictures...
And I realize every guy looks the same. There is no such thing as a fashion flub for guys.
Suit, tie...easy, but kind of boring.
And then I saw this...
Blue bow-tie, sunglasses, and tennis shoes...Thank you Robert Downey Jr!!
And I suppose your wife looks very pretty too...
(*cough*)
Samuel L Jackson was a bit different too, wearing a beret, and I was glad to see the variety...
But it makes me wonder...
Are Hollywood men really all the same??
Guess I better stop dreaming about them, then...
Did you watch the awards?
Friday, March 5, 2010
Isn't she lovely...
So I'm down in Denver, Arvada, specifically (love suburbs!! =]) and life is...fun?
Okay, truth...
I'm kind of slacking...
I'm not going sight-seeing...
I'm not socializing...
I'm not doing any homework other than reading the materials...
But that's just during the day.
I arrived Sunday morning --nothin like 95 down the highway-- and went to church with Amanda and met some friends, met her granny, took a nap...then we were off to the Grizzly Rose, a country bar in town, and we went line-dancing, which was awesome...
But come Monday, Amanda has a nine-five job. Well, sort of, I think it's more like 4 than 5...but anyway...
So I sleep in. And listen to music. Write some more in a story I'm working on. Did I watch a movie? Hmmm...but then Amanda's home and we're off to Aunt Ruth's for dinner, which was great, only, what is it with these people and skim milk??
But unimportant, forget that...
Tuesday...
Sleep in a little less...listen to music...read comics...write some more for story...chat a little with granny --Harriet-- and eat some food. Cheerios is breakfast of choice here? Okay. Then Amanda's home, and awesome, she has another job lined up for when she resigns the end of the month. To celebrate? Well, I have plans with cousins...you wanna come with? Of course she does...and we go, great time, and then, what? A horror movie? Me? For real?
(I've never seen one in theaters before and tend to walk out of the room at home!)
But Daybreakers was actually quite awesome...though there was that one scene...
Blah
Ouch
Splash/Splat
Good times, and what's this? No nightmares...huh...
Wednesday...
Sleep in even less...music...comics...story...day-time television...Robert Pattinson's English accent just gets easier and easier haha...or was that on Tuesday? Days kind of blur...and what's this I hear? Bible study is canceled tonight so plans I thought we had are no more...but wait. Game night? I'm up for it. Good food, good times...and what was that game called? I lost so I guess it doesn't matter...
Thursday...
The adventure begins...up early. Only a few moments to myself before I'm off. Shopping. An hour in Best Buy at least before I finally decide I don't want a single person more to ask if I'm okay, so I bought a History Channel presentation on vampires and my first ever horror flick of my own...but the cover is pink, and the language is Japanese, so I think I might be safe. Maybe...more shopping then. WalMart only sells cute dresses to plus sizes. Skinny girls don't get cute, they get skanky. Why am I so skinny? How many people want to be fat? Strange...driving down the road, no idea where I'm going...and I found a Kohl's. Victory!! And after ten dresses in the changing room, I'm down to two...and I go for pink. And paid less than fifty percent for it. Then I get lost again...but I found the library. And a lovely lady gave me maps and told me where I could find a park...so I'm off...in the wrong direction. And instead I find an art gallery, and two-plus hours and several sketches later I call Amanda for directions back home. Where I'm only there a short time before we're off to Grandma Judy's for dinner, we watch The Jetsons Movie and then back to Aunt Ruth's where we're dog-sitting for RIP April's sister...and somehow, being able to fit in one bed as averse to bed and floor, we stay up and it's actually like a girls' night sleepover thing...
Which was dimmed when we learned a friend of a friend had committed suicide.
Lord bless that boy's family, and give them peace...
But even if he gave up, life still goes on for me...
So it's Friday.
And I have no plans except to do laundry and take the dogs for a walk.
And though spring break hasn't been the most exciting...
I think I like it like this...
But maybe I'm crazy...
Crazier, by Taylor Swift
I've never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Til' you opened the door
And there's so much more
I'd never seen it before
I was tryin' to fly but I couldn't find wings
But you came along and changed everything
You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me Crazier Crazier Crazier
I watched from a distance as you
Made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe
You lift my my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier
Ohhhh
Baby you showed me what livin' is for
I don't wanna hide anymore
Oh Ohh
You lift my feet off the ground
You take me away
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier
Crazier
Crazier
Okay, truth...
I'm kind of slacking...
I'm not going sight-seeing...
I'm not socializing...
I'm not doing any homework other than reading the materials...
But that's just during the day.
I arrived Sunday morning --nothin like 95 down the highway-- and went to church with Amanda and met some friends, met her granny, took a nap...then we were off to the Grizzly Rose, a country bar in town, and we went line-dancing, which was awesome...
But come Monday, Amanda has a nine-five job. Well, sort of, I think it's more like 4 than 5...but anyway...
So I sleep in. And listen to music. Write some more in a story I'm working on. Did I watch a movie? Hmmm...but then Amanda's home and we're off to Aunt Ruth's for dinner, which was great, only, what is it with these people and skim milk??
But unimportant, forget that...
Tuesday...
Sleep in a little less...listen to music...read comics...write some more for story...chat a little with granny --Harriet-- and eat some food. Cheerios is breakfast of choice here? Okay. Then Amanda's home, and awesome, she has another job lined up for when she resigns the end of the month. To celebrate? Well, I have plans with cousins...you wanna come with? Of course she does...and we go, great time, and then, what? A horror movie? Me? For real?
(I've never seen one in theaters before and tend to walk out of the room at home!)
But Daybreakers was actually quite awesome...though there was that one scene...
Blah
Ouch
Splash/Splat
Good times, and what's this? No nightmares...huh...
Wednesday...
Sleep in even less...music...comics...story...day-time television...Robert Pattinson's English accent just gets easier and easier haha...or was that on Tuesday? Days kind of blur...and what's this I hear? Bible study is canceled tonight so plans I thought we had are no more...but wait. Game night? I'm up for it. Good food, good times...and what was that game called? I lost so I guess it doesn't matter...
Thursday...
The adventure begins...up early. Only a few moments to myself before I'm off. Shopping. An hour in Best Buy at least before I finally decide I don't want a single person more to ask if I'm okay, so I bought a History Channel presentation on vampires and my first ever horror flick of my own...but the cover is pink, and the language is Japanese, so I think I might be safe. Maybe...more shopping then. WalMart only sells cute dresses to plus sizes. Skinny girls don't get cute, they get skanky. Why am I so skinny? How many people want to be fat? Strange...driving down the road, no idea where I'm going...and I found a Kohl's. Victory!! And after ten dresses in the changing room, I'm down to two...and I go for pink. And paid less than fifty percent for it. Then I get lost again...but I found the library. And a lovely lady gave me maps and told me where I could find a park...so I'm off...in the wrong direction. And instead I find an art gallery, and two-plus hours and several sketches later I call Amanda for directions back home. Where I'm only there a short time before we're off to Grandma Judy's for dinner, we watch The Jetsons Movie and then back to Aunt Ruth's where we're dog-sitting for RIP April's sister...and somehow, being able to fit in one bed as averse to bed and floor, we stay up and it's actually like a girls' night sleepover thing...
Which was dimmed when we learned a friend of a friend had committed suicide.
Lord bless that boy's family, and give them peace...
But even if he gave up, life still goes on for me...
So it's Friday.
And I have no plans except to do laundry and take the dogs for a walk.
And though spring break hasn't been the most exciting...
I think I like it like this...
But maybe I'm crazy...
Crazier, by Taylor Swift
I've never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Til' you opened the door
And there's so much more
I'd never seen it before
I was tryin' to fly but I couldn't find wings
But you came along and changed everything
You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me Crazier Crazier Crazier
I watched from a distance as you
Made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe
You lift my my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier
Ohhhh
Baby you showed me what livin' is for
I don't wanna hide anymore
Oh Ohh
You lift my feet off the ground
You take me away
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier
Crazier
Crazier
Friday, February 26, 2010
Skippy Peanut Butter and other Essentials...
Wanna know a secret?
Promise not to tell?
We are standing by a wishing well...
I love Snow White...
So as of like half an hour ago, I have no more classes for a little over a week...
YAY SPRING BREAK!!!
I'm going to visit my awesome friend Amanda in the Denver area, and I'm so excited because it's been about two years since we've been face to face, and I miss her!!! Also, I get to visit my cousins Beth and Stephen and little Avery, and see my Uncle Brian and Aunt Kim...
(psst!! they're my favorites!! but don't tell anyone!!)
Ha, but seriously, I'm so excited, and yes, it will be a long drive--I'll be careful, Mom!!--but it will be awesome, and I love to drive, I really do. Plus, I have an excuse to make a bunch of mixed cds, and I'm stuck on Jet and Coldplay and Keane and Aqualung and Gary Jules...yeah, so lots to listen to, and it will be another adventure.
EVERYTHING is an adventure.
Otherwise it's just boring.
And life cannot be boring!! I refuse permission for boring-ness!!
Okay?
Okay.
ANYWAYS...
I have laundry and dishes to do, and a few papers due when I get back that I should at least get a rough draft done before I leave, and then work on the rest there. Oh! and I think I'm going to make bread to bring down, cuz there ain't nothin like cardamom bread, and I have to share it with the world!! Or just Amanda and her family haha. Also making a pretty thing in crocheting, gotta finish that up...
So much to do, so little time!!
I'm late
I'm late
For a very important date
Speaking of Alice in Wonderland...
Must dash!!
Hope you all have a great Friday!!
Promise not to tell?
We are standing by a wishing well...
I love Snow White...
So as of like half an hour ago, I have no more classes for a little over a week...
YAY SPRING BREAK!!!
I'm going to visit my awesome friend Amanda in the Denver area, and I'm so excited because it's been about two years since we've been face to face, and I miss her!!! Also, I get to visit my cousins Beth and Stephen and little Avery, and see my Uncle Brian and Aunt Kim...
(psst!! they're my favorites!! but don't tell anyone!!)
Ha, but seriously, I'm so excited, and yes, it will be a long drive--I'll be careful, Mom!!--but it will be awesome, and I love to drive, I really do. Plus, I have an excuse to make a bunch of mixed cds, and I'm stuck on Jet and Coldplay and Keane and Aqualung and Gary Jules...yeah, so lots to listen to, and it will be another adventure.
EVERYTHING is an adventure.
Otherwise it's just boring.
And life cannot be boring!! I refuse permission for boring-ness!!
Okay?
Okay.
ANYWAYS...
I have laundry and dishes to do, and a few papers due when I get back that I should at least get a rough draft done before I leave, and then work on the rest there. Oh! and I think I'm going to make bread to bring down, cuz there ain't nothin like cardamom bread, and I have to share it with the world!! Or just Amanda and her family haha. Also making a pretty thing in crocheting, gotta finish that up...
So much to do, so little time!!
I'm late
I'm late
For a very important date
Speaking of Alice in Wonderland...
Must dash!!
Hope you all have a great Friday!!
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Mad World...
I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
Do you know how hard it is to stay positive?
You don't, do you?
You think, wow, this girl is perky, excited, hyper and she must be just the happiest person in the world!!
Well...
The happiest person in the world cries herself to sleep...
Where the happiest person in the world is plagued by nightmares that grow steadily worse by the day...
So when the happiest person in the world wakes up, she's not sure if she should ever sleep again...
And then once she's fully awake and out of dreamland, the happiest person in the world is plagued with doubts about life, school, family...God...
Because the happiest person in the world is starting to crack.
Tears are coming during the day...
Smiles are starting to fade...
And the happiest person in the world just wants to give up...
But...
I have a reputation to uphold...
Bring on the cheerleader personality!!
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
Do you know how hard it is to stay positive?
You don't, do you?
You think, wow, this girl is perky, excited, hyper and she must be just the happiest person in the world!!
Well...
The happiest person in the world cries herself to sleep...
Where the happiest person in the world is plagued by nightmares that grow steadily worse by the day...
So when the happiest person in the world wakes up, she's not sure if she should ever sleep again...
And then once she's fully awake and out of dreamland, the happiest person in the world is plagued with doubts about life, school, family...God...
Because the happiest person in the world is starting to crack.
Tears are coming during the day...
Smiles are starting to fade...
And the happiest person in the world just wants to give up...
But...
I have a reputation to uphold...
Bring on the cheerleader personality!!
(And maybe stash some chocolate around for when it gets rough)
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
YAY HOORAY!!!
So my lovely not-so-little younger sister has a blog...
And you should start reading it!!
http://ellenhorsecrazy.blogspot.com
Awesomeness...
In fact...
I shall write a poem to commemorate the occasion...
My baby sister
I really miss her
We don't get to talk that much
But now today
I say 'Hooray!'
With this we can almost touch
Haha, so lame...
But anyway, visit her blog, and I will get on her case about keeping up to date
(and keep up to date on my own, too!!)
Love you all...
And you should start reading it!!
http://ellenhorsecrazy.blogspot.com
Awesomeness...
In fact...
I shall write a poem to commemorate the occasion...
My baby sister
I really miss her
We don't get to talk that much
But now today
I say 'Hooray!'
With this we can almost touch
Haha, so lame...
But anyway, visit her blog, and I will get on her case about keeping up to date
(and keep up to date on my own, too!!)
Love you all...
Monday, February 22, 2010
Going through my head...
Aside from the words to Suemitsue & the Suemith's Sagitarrius...
Aoi namida no kazu hoshi no kazu
Musunda sora ni nowhere nowhere nowhere
Itsuka kiete yuku
Tsukamu hikari hitotsu hitotsu dake
Egaita yume wo somewhere somewhere somewhere
Nagamete iru
It's probably a little weird to sing songs you don't understand all the words...but I know at least half of them, and the rest I'm slowly learning...
I think maybe it's a bad idea to be a history major...
I'm so not good at writing papers and tend to bullshit my way through them. And I can't focus very well on what I'm reading, maybe because it's so much at one time, but I'm having issues.
I feel like my Bible study is full of non-believers...
So many things they argue over that seem to be not Biblical, and they're so adamant about them, and I want to call up Pastor Brian just to get his take on things, because I trust him, and everyone else seems a little bit out of whack.
I'm a guitar player, not a bass player...
I love my bass, and it's pretty awesome when I play, and I love to mimic bass lines from my favorite songs. But when it comes down to it, I'm a melody-player. And for that, I need a guitar.
I am not quite a style icon...
Yes, I can get people to look at me...but I think it's more in shock than awe. Bright pink pajama pants or a red dress, they only catch the eye, but I don't think they impress. Perhaps I should take a more subtle approach.
I am not cut out to live with someone else...
I'm too messy, I'm too chaotic, my schedule changes on a whim, and even if I'll do the dishes every time, I still think I need more stability, and I just can't get that at this point, and I don't see myself getting it ever.
I want to go home...
But if I give up now, no one will ever trust me again, and I so don't want to let anyone down...
That's the gist of what's 'going through my head'...
Aoi namida no kazu hoshi no kazu
Musunda sora ni nowhere nowhere nowhere
Itsuka kiete yuku
Tsukamu hikari hitotsu hitotsu dake
Egaita yume wo somewhere somewhere somewhere
Nagamete iru
It's probably a little weird to sing songs you don't understand all the words...but I know at least half of them, and the rest I'm slowly learning...
I think maybe it's a bad idea to be a history major...
I'm so not good at writing papers and tend to bullshit my way through them. And I can't focus very well on what I'm reading, maybe because it's so much at one time, but I'm having issues.
I feel like my Bible study is full of non-believers...
So many things they argue over that seem to be not Biblical, and they're so adamant about them, and I want to call up Pastor Brian just to get his take on things, because I trust him, and everyone else seems a little bit out of whack.
I'm a guitar player, not a bass player...
I love my bass, and it's pretty awesome when I play, and I love to mimic bass lines from my favorite songs. But when it comes down to it, I'm a melody-player. And for that, I need a guitar.
I am not quite a style icon...
Yes, I can get people to look at me...but I think it's more in shock than awe. Bright pink pajama pants or a red dress, they only catch the eye, but I don't think they impress. Perhaps I should take a more subtle approach.
I am not cut out to live with someone else...
I'm too messy, I'm too chaotic, my schedule changes on a whim, and even if I'll do the dishes every time, I still think I need more stability, and I just can't get that at this point, and I don't see myself getting it ever.
I want to go home...
But if I give up now, no one will ever trust me again, and I so don't want to let anyone down...
That's the gist of what's 'going through my head'...
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Top 10 & Counting...
So, a few weeks ago, a friend and I got into a little 'semi-argument' about cute guys and such, and I said I'd make a list of hot guys, and let our friends decide who had better taste...and what should have been a one-week project turned into nearly a month (Thanks, homework, for distracting me!!!) but it's finally here...
In no particular order...
My Hottie List...
Jim Caviezel
When I first laid eyes on this hunk, he was an awkward boyish Frenchman betrayed by his best friend...and even if the title's fake, who wouldn't fall for the Count he becomes? Then he takes on something as awe-inspiring as The Passion, and just blows my mind. If he can pull that off, he's a winner no matter what.
John Corbett
Many roles, but the one that captures my heart is that of Pastor Dan, in Raising Helen.
"I'm a sexy man of God, and I know it."
Yes, you are, John, yes you are!
Hugh Dancy
No, I don't approve of the way he played Prince Charmont in Ella Enchanted. But mostly because of the writers screwing up a good story...as for Hugh himself...so cute!! And then he's in another favorite book-to-movie, Blood & Chocolate, and same story...but he's awkward, funny, can ride horse and draw--or so Hollywood would have us believe--and I don't know if he's English or American, but he can do both and it fits either way...he is very sigh-worthy...
Johnny Depp
Do I even need a reason? Well, I'll give you one anyway...
There are so many things I could say about this man...
I first fell for him as Captain Jack..."Take what you can, give nothing back!"
But once I started watching his other films, I realized, the man is a genius in EVERY ROLE HE PLAYS!! Sweeney Todd...The Corpse Bride...Benny & Joon...no matter how far the list goes on, it all comes down to one thing: the man is a master!
Zac Efron
No, I didn't fall for him in High School Musical...because I didn't decide to see the trilogy until after I watched 17 Again seven days in a row. But he's just so cute!! I couldn't help myself...
Colin Firth
Now if you like awkward cute guys, here you are...but it was actually one of his 'less nervous' roles that got me hooked. Have you discovered the joy of six hours of Pride & Prejudice? A favorite book, and they actually hit it spot-on behind cameras...if it were a bad remake, would he still be on this list? Yes...because of Love Actually, Nanny McPhee, What A Girl Wants...should I go on?
Harrison Ford
Han Solo, Indiana Jones, the President of the United States...this man can do everything, and has, and I don't care how gray his hair gets; the man has charisma! Remember, not old, but distinguished!
Jonathan Frakes
Some of you may be unfamiliar with this charmer, but once you see him in action, you can't deny he's got it. Commander William Riker of the starship Enterprise...I would definitely join Starfleet for this man, even if I know he'll go for Troi in the end...
Cary Grant
Though I know better, half the time I can't tell whether this man is English or American...and that's part of his charm--which he has loads of, even while being an ass, as he is sometimes. But he still gets the girl? Now that's talent.
Hugh Grant
Another English 'Grant,' this one more awkward, and yet just as lovable. I have to ask myself why...because when I get down to it, he's not the most attractive man in the world. But that sweet persona he has just grabs my heart, and I can't help but fall...
Justin Hawkins of The Darkness
Okay, so yes, he's a bit awkward, gives off a very strange vibe, and have you seen his video for "I Believe in a Thing Called Love"? But regardless...that's like my favorite song. I love his voice. And guess what? He plays a Les Paul!! Application approved...
Sterling Knight
Unbeknownst to myself, the first time I saw this guy was on 17 Again...there are just so many good things in that movie!! But then I saw him again on Sunny with a Chance, and just recently on Starstruck...yes, he is a product of Disney. But I like his style, and he sings, too, so why not?
Hunter Parrish
Don't ask me why I like him. Just sit back. Take him in. And when you're ready, you can move on.
Matthew Perry
I'm not a big fan of Friends, but this guy is just so believable, in every role, and he's got an honest, straight-forward quality about him you can't help fall for. Plus, he turns into Zac Efron in 17 Again and that ain't not bad...
Brad Pitt
What is there to like about this man? Other than that he is Brad Pitt, of course...well, other than his looks, I'd have to say the moment I became a hardcore BP fan was in Mr & Mrs Smith, when he couldn't pull the trigger...love conquers all, doesn't it? Another favorite role is the infamous Joe Black...if the man can make Death look that good, then he definitely deserves a spot on my favorites...
Andrew Lee Potts
I've only seen this cutie in one thing, but his role as Hatter in SyFy's Alice --yes, it's 'Alice in Wonderland' remade-- had such an effect on me I started writing my own remake. He's awkward, clever, shabbily dressed and just plain adorable...I don't think I've ever liked the 'Mad Hatter' more...
Matthew Thiessen of Relient K
Front and center, there he is, with his fellow bandmates...but what about this lead singer captured my heart?
"Sadie Hawkins Dance, in my khaki pants, there's nothing better...oh oh oh!"
Who could resist those high notes? And trust me, he hits those notes just as well live as in the studio.
The following are not quite on my list, but the pictures were so that I couldn't just leave them off without giving them a shout-out...
So here are the 'honorable mentions'...
A young Clint Eastwood...can you say WOW??
Ah, Patrick Dempsey...and in Japan, no less, for one of my favorite movies...
Jude Law & Jack Black...good and bad roles between them, but when you watch The Holiday how can you not fall in love?
Now don't make fun, just because I have a Twilight character here...you'll notice that Mr Lautner did not make the 'official list,' and I didn't even pick one of the many topless pictures I found...(but I still love you, Taylor!!)
I never would have thought James Marsden could do comedy so well...but his princely role is just too funny...and too sweet!
Group shot!!!
Okay, so it's all the 17 Again cast members I mentioned beforehand, but now all together...
Move over, girls and make room for me!!
And that's all for today, folks, but don't worry, there will be more. In fact, next week, I think I'll put up a list of all the female hotties I'm crushing on...
JUST KIDDING!!
Hope you're all having a great week!!
In no particular order...
My Hottie List...
Jim CaviezelWhen I first laid eyes on this hunk, he was an awkward boyish Frenchman betrayed by his best friend...and even if the title's fake, who wouldn't fall for the Count he becomes? Then he takes on something as awe-inspiring as The Passion, and just blows my mind. If he can pull that off, he's a winner no matter what.
John CorbettMany roles, but the one that captures my heart is that of Pastor Dan, in Raising Helen.
"I'm a sexy man of God, and I know it."
Yes, you are, John, yes you are!
Hugh DancyNo, I don't approve of the way he played Prince Charmont in Ella Enchanted. But mostly because of the writers screwing up a good story...as for Hugh himself...so cute!! And then he's in another favorite book-to-movie, Blood & Chocolate, and same story...but he's awkward, funny, can ride horse and draw--or so Hollywood would have us believe--and I don't know if he's English or American, but he can do both and it fits either way...he is very sigh-worthy...
Johnny DeppDo I even need a reason? Well, I'll give you one anyway...
There are so many things I could say about this man...
I first fell for him as Captain Jack..."Take what you can, give nothing back!"
But once I started watching his other films, I realized, the man is a genius in EVERY ROLE HE PLAYS!! Sweeney Todd...The Corpse Bride...Benny & Joon...no matter how far the list goes on, it all comes down to one thing: the man is a master!
Zac EfronNo, I didn't fall for him in High School Musical...because I didn't decide to see the trilogy until after I watched 17 Again seven days in a row. But he's just so cute!! I couldn't help myself...
Colin FirthNow if you like awkward cute guys, here you are...but it was actually one of his 'less nervous' roles that got me hooked. Have you discovered the joy of six hours of Pride & Prejudice? A favorite book, and they actually hit it spot-on behind cameras...if it were a bad remake, would he still be on this list? Yes...because of Love Actually, Nanny McPhee, What A Girl Wants...should I go on?
Harrison FordHan Solo, Indiana Jones, the President of the United States...this man can do everything, and has, and I don't care how gray his hair gets; the man has charisma! Remember, not old, but distinguished!
Jonathan FrakesSome of you may be unfamiliar with this charmer, but once you see him in action, you can't deny he's got it. Commander William Riker of the starship Enterprise...I would definitely join Starfleet for this man, even if I know he'll go for Troi in the end...
Cary GrantThough I know better, half the time I can't tell whether this man is English or American...and that's part of his charm--which he has loads of, even while being an ass, as he is sometimes. But he still gets the girl? Now that's talent.
Hugh GrantAnother English 'Grant,' this one more awkward, and yet just as lovable. I have to ask myself why...because when I get down to it, he's not the most attractive man in the world. But that sweet persona he has just grabs my heart, and I can't help but fall...
Justin Hawkins of The DarknessOkay, so yes, he's a bit awkward, gives off a very strange vibe, and have you seen his video for "I Believe in a Thing Called Love"? But regardless...that's like my favorite song. I love his voice. And guess what? He plays a Les Paul!! Application approved...
Sterling KnightUnbeknownst to myself, the first time I saw this guy was on 17 Again...there are just so many good things in that movie!! But then I saw him again on Sunny with a Chance, and just recently on Starstruck...yes, he is a product of Disney. But I like his style, and he sings, too, so why not?
Hunter ParrishDon't ask me why I like him. Just sit back. Take him in. And when you're ready, you can move on.
Matthew PerryI'm not a big fan of Friends, but this guy is just so believable, in every role, and he's got an honest, straight-forward quality about him you can't help fall for. Plus, he turns into Zac Efron in 17 Again and that ain't not bad...
Brad PittWhat is there to like about this man? Other than that he is Brad Pitt, of course...well, other than his looks, I'd have to say the moment I became a hardcore BP fan was in Mr & Mrs Smith, when he couldn't pull the trigger...love conquers all, doesn't it? Another favorite role is the infamous Joe Black...if the man can make Death look that good, then he definitely deserves a spot on my favorites...
Andrew Lee PottsI've only seen this cutie in one thing, but his role as Hatter in SyFy's Alice --yes, it's 'Alice in Wonderland' remade-- had such an effect on me I started writing my own remake. He's awkward, clever, shabbily dressed and just plain adorable...I don't think I've ever liked the 'Mad Hatter' more...
Matthew Thiessen of Relient KFront and center, there he is, with his fellow bandmates...but what about this lead singer captured my heart?
"Sadie Hawkins Dance, in my khaki pants, there's nothing better...oh oh oh!"
Who could resist those high notes? And trust me, he hits those notes just as well live as in the studio.
The following are not quite on my list, but the pictures were so that I couldn't just leave them off without giving them a shout-out...
So here are the 'honorable mentions'...
A young Clint Eastwood...can you say WOW??
Ah, Patrick Dempsey...and in Japan, no less, for one of my favorite movies...
Jude Law & Jack Black...good and bad roles between them, but when you watch The Holiday how can you not fall in love?
Now don't make fun, just because I have a Twilight character here...you'll notice that Mr Lautner did not make the 'official list,' and I didn't even pick one of the many topless pictures I found...(but I still love you, Taylor!!)
I never would have thought James Marsden could do comedy so well...but his princely role is just too funny...and too sweet!
Group shot!!!Okay, so it's all the 17 Again cast members I mentioned beforehand, but now all together...
Move over, girls and make room for me!!
And that's all for today, folks, but don't worry, there will be more. In fact, next week, I think I'll put up a list of all the female hotties I'm crushing on...
JUST KIDDING!!
Hope you're all having a great week!!
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