The Craziness...

Is actually not as crazy as one might think.
I take care of Liberty, but really only changing diapers, giving her some of my food, filling her sippy cup...and enduring endless childrens' movies...but I kind of like it...and once I put the movie in, I can actually fall back to sleep, lol.
(I think Jess would like to pour water on me some days, but she's been good so far)
I do the dishes at night...though, okay, I missed tonight and last night...ouch...but I try, and the other day I vacuumed --that's on ERIC's job list, not mine, so hah!-- and I keep my stuff picked up, and I clean up after Liberty, and I'm a lot less messy here than I am at home, so I guess I'm good.
When I can, I hold Logan and keep him happy, and I'm always rushing to get diapers for Jessie...
I almost wish I could stay forever, because the longer I'm here, the more I can hold him. The last few days have been okay, but before, any time I'd ask, Jess would snap "NO!" and I'd back off, and just wish I was the one with the baby instead so I could be mean...
Though, honest, I don't think she meant to, I think it's just part of being a mommy.
I'll be just as bad, if not worse, I'm sure, when my time comes.
We've had an assortment of visitors...
A bunch of friends, of course, some for the evening, some for just ten minutes...most for the evening...and family, too. Mom and the girls --minus Ellen-- came down that first weekend, and that was nice, though I'll admit, I wasn't sociable, mostly because it looked like Mom and Jess were into their own conversations, Maggie was into her book, Katey annoyed me the minute I saw her, and Hildi...well, I'm not good at being 'adult' with babies, I like to play, and I needed stimulation...damn Ellen for not coming...no scratch that, sorry...Ross has been over several times, he's a very proud uncle, I think even happier to have a nephew than a niece, haha. Lowell comes when he can, too, though he drives a lot and is gone mostly...even Justin made an appearance, though I ignored him...I'm so mean, but apparently Jessie's meaner, I just didn't hear with the headphones on. Oh, and Aunt Kim and Tate came by yesterday and it was nice chatting with them, and I made the observation that, despite no blood relation, Tate and Katey look somewhat alike...maybe I'm crazy, but they thought it might be the fact that they're going through growing stages...whatever...

I kind of rambled there...
Go figure...

So I'm having my moments, mostly in the middle of the night, still kind of dread sleeping, whatever, but I'm a lot calmer, I think, and a lot less easily upset these last couple days, so obviously prayers are working --thank you to those who kept up.
I think I'm going home soon, though...
Even though I dread it...
I don't want to sleep in my room...
But I feel like I'm almost an extra here, even if no one actually thinks so.
So, if the weather's okay, I'll probably be going on either Monday...today...or Tuesday...we'll see, I guess...
Pray for a safe trip!